Shadow Lake (Demo 2015)

by To Vanish Tomorrow

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Drums recorded at Skylab Studios NJ.
Everything else recorded in Tony's attic.
All music written by To Vanish Tomorrow.
Ron Beaton wrote and performed the bass for this ep while he was in the band.
Artwork by Carlos Segarra.

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released December 29, 2015

Lyrics by Aidan, Mike and Ron.
Mixed and mastered by Aidan in his bedroom.

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To Vanish Tomorrow Perth Amboy, New Jersey

nj // ambient post-hardcore

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Track Name: Elide
Long story short
I left my hear under your control
and oh, I have my doubts
and I feel ashamed

And oh, I have my doubts
I do feel ashamed
for what I did
down by the lake

But nobody knows
what went on down below
but nobody knows
what it took to let her go

Go, speak to me
if you think I'm listening
beneath the ground is where I'm free
go, speak to me
if you think I'm listening
laugh it off like you're relieved

Long story short
cut me up in all sorts
and oh, I have my doubts
and I feel ashamed

Cut me up in all sorts
I left my heart
under your control

(shudder now, the voice get's loud
shudder now, you should be proud)
And now it's come to this
and all that I've learned is
that our time is too precious to risk
on a backwards life
where you close your eyes
and see nothing but emptiness

Long story told
(it's all my fault, don't blame her)
long story told
(forgive me please, dreary dreams)

Night sky ambulance ride
each led on
my last goodbye
bleak dawn hosptial rise
everyone cries
I meant to die
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you
but it's alright
Track Name: Heaven In Her Arms
Early at the lake
the moment to ease the pain
the sky stained hopeless and grey
it's here, forever I'll stay
in the breeze
in the breeze I'll sway

Bleeding out
I'll stain the pale ground
red as Autumn
going numb,
in this feeling of
falling

Bleeding out
I'll free myself
from life in this head,
from life in this hell

The sky drips down
and cries for me
the trees all melt
to memories
the final scene
I'll ever see
the cordage snaps and I begin to bleed

Bleeding out
I'll stain the pale ground
red as Autumn
going numb,
not close enough
failing

I felt it crack,
and then the memories came rushing back (came rushing back)
flashes of faces that I'll never miss
turn to blackness
and I can't distinguish
if my eyes are even open

(this feeling of falling
the sound of bones breaking)
Shoot me, just shoot me

At last, is this the end?

(I'll stain the pale ground
red as Autumn)

Going numb,
not close enough
failing, falling

(bleeding out)

And finally my time has come,
this is it
this is the end
Track Name: Shadow Lake
Down on Route 9,
lies a place most would say is fine
walking to the place of my death,
I look to the skies
and hope that the screams will stay clear of my head
the breeze is releasing every little tension and feeling
my body recieving
(recieving, recieving)
see the girl when I'm dreaming
I'll be dead and sleeping,
when I feel the rope creeping

Rope take me away,
hanging from the tree I sway
Rope take me away,
Shadow Lake is where I'll stay

Dark skies and dead flowers
the place I sleep forever
my grave will be nameless
this home has no address

It goes slow, as you look upon that place
and you see your reflection you're gone without a trace
and I know, dream of it today
because you're gone tomorrow
(and you can't be replaced)

As I contemplate my death, I feel her breath on the back of my neck
I hear her calling
I hear it, I feel it
redemption it escapes me
who is she?
Her figure leaves me faintly
can she save me?
Can she save me from myself?

My death bed, my only heaven
picturing the scenes in my head
a church bell soundtrack for
a caution tape funeral

It goes slow, as you look upon that place
and you see your reflection you're gone without a trace
and I know, dream of it today
because you're gone tomorrow
(and you can't be replaced)

This is the end of the road
Track Name: Conversing With Death
(It was never enough)

Your end is not a single event
all that I've learned is
you can spend your whole life dead

There's not a single thing you could say
to keep me here
and all the times you thought you survived
death was always near
death is always near

You told me I'd run
from every fucking thing I've done
or that I'd feel like shit
Death skipped his visit

Disappear in front of me again
exchanging words with her, she vanishes

Erase the words that fall from my mouth
just like all I've seen here
and there is no time left
to fantasize
I can't steal back my reflection from her eyes

There's not a single thing you could say
to keep me here
and all the times you thought you survived
death was always near
death is always near

It comes for you

Wake up, no one can save you
wake up, no one can hear you
wake up, this is the end
she takes my hand, I know her plan
I hear them laughing at me
I hear them laughing and
as I walk to the edge of the building
I look over and see all the smiles

I lay here dreaming in a spiderweb of lies
you're just a faceless ghost that's dressed in a disguise
I walk around an empty town that's deep inside my mind

(Can you kill me?)
Track Name: Welcome Back
As I'm brought back
surrounded by these faces and the hospital staff
something went wrong,
I truly believed I was gone
a few hours ago
I was cold and alone,
but now that I'm back I'm screaming

The doctor says welcome back
although my body was dead
I was alive in my head
the doctor says welcome back
but I'd rather be dead
than alive in this hospital bed
eternity slipped through the cracks

Don't cry for me

(The doctor says welcome back
my body was dead
but I was alive in my head
eternity slipped through the cracks
the doctor says welcome back
but I'd rather be dead
than alive in this hospital bed)